25/10/2020: Meditation

My Private Notes

I keep going out of body lately when I meditate. It happened again today.

I don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing. In the moment it’s just a thing, neither good or bad.

I felt scared though and anchored onto the breath, focusing on my breathing. Thought stopped existing but it felt too much like when I’m dissociating and have brain fog. Only the breath kept me centered and feeling some connection to my body, like a strong tether. For a while I was just in this strange place of my mind miles outside my body in a scary ‘no thought’ place but my breath inside my body fully living. I felt like if I were to stop breathing or that connection to the breath were to be severed… I’d die, and float around like a wight.

Scary…

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