I thought he just wanted to hurt me, especially sexually, to rape me.
I was way off the mark.
When he asks, “do you accept me”, in a sexual context… The question is not sexual! It’s not “do you accept me to rape you” (aka do you give you consent for me to hurt you)… it’s “do you accept me as an integral part of your psyche so I can be loved and healed and integrated”.
WHY DID IT TAKE ME SO LONG TO REALISE THIS?!
Okay. I did consider it before, but I didn’t ‘know’, I didn’t have the realisation like I did just now (I’m high).
So, this time I replied, “yes, I accept you, I accept all of you… I don’t know what this means or how it will change things, but now I absolutely accept you”.
This is cannabis + full moon in Aries healing energy 🌕🌲