Vow of the Womb Priestess

I give myself to the Great Remembering
I serve only Love and our evolution in Love
I vow to anchor the true Divine Feminine on Earth
I vow to anchor the true Divine Feminine in my Womb
I vow to leave no shadow unloved, no wound without balm
I walk the Path of Love, I commit to our Return to Innocence
I strip away all my armor and leave my heart undefended
I embrace all my feelings; nothing is forbidden or left out
My strength is my surrender to the Divine Feminine flow
I honor my pristine sexuality as a Gift of Life, wild and free
I long to merge with the Ecstatic Innocence of Love in All
Sacred Relationship is my sacrament, the Womb my temple
I vow to return my Womb to her Immaculate Sensuality
To embody the sacred powers of Conscious Conception
My life is part of a greater tapestry, I offer all to this weaving
Holding the 42 corners of the Pure Land from whence we came
Beloved Divine Mother, bear witness to my vow.

– Taken from the book “Womb Awakening: Initiatory Wisdom from the Creatrix of All Life” by Azra Bertrand and Seren Bertrand

Praying the Triple Goddess Rosary (Simplified Version)

The Charge of the Goddess

Great Goddess, Lady of Life,
Whose garment is the shining heavens
You are the white Moon among the stars
And the beauty of the green Earth
You are the Oneness of all things
And the completion of the spirit
You are the mystery of that which we seek,
If we find not within,
We will never find it without
For You have been here since the beginning,
And You are that which is attained at the end of desire
Blessed Be

Maiden

Maiden of freedom,
You are the eternal virgin,
The Holy Bride of nature,
And the revealing light within the shadows.
Through You, all that is good comes to birth

Mother

Mother of compassion,
Forever fertile,
Lady of the forge,
You are the creating force of love
And the strength which nourishes all that lives.
Through you the cause of life is served

Crone

Crone of Wisdom,
Ancient One,
Keeper of the Cauldron,
You stand at the gates between the worlds
And carry the shining sickle of death.
Without You nothing can be transformed

Praying the Triple Goddess Rosary

The Oath of Maimonides (Amended)

The eternal providence has appointed me to watch over the life and health of Your creatures. May the love for my art actuate me at all time; may neither avarice nor miserliness, nor thirst for glory or for a great reputation engage my mind; for the enemies of truth and philanthropy could easily deceive me and make me forgetful of my lofty aim of doing good to Your children.

May I never see in the patient anything but a fellow creature in pain.

Grant me the strength, time and opportunity always to correct what I have acquired, always to extend its domain; for knowledge is immense and the spirit of maid can extend indefinitely to enrich itself daily with new requirements.

Today she can discover her errors of yesterday and tomorrow she can obtain a new light on what she thinks herself sure of today. Oh, Goddess, You have appointed me to watch over the life and death of Your creatures; here am I ready for my vocation and now I turn unto my calling.

The Hippocratic Oath and others (Amended feminine version)

Meeting Daddy in Boston and Embodying the Wounded Healer

It is almost the summer solstice and I have just returned from holiday in Greater Boston where I met with my Daddy for the first time. The weather was thankfully beautiful and hot but I’ve come back to a cloudy and cool England which makes the separation again more bittersweet.

Actually, I kickstarted my holiday by seeing BTS for the second time this time at Wembley Stadium. I got myself a second tattoo to commemorate it (I’m starting to think I may be becoming addicted to getting tattoos lol) and I had the time of my life. The day after I got the plane from Heathrow to Boston. I was anxious and irritable actually but thankfully all for nothing because we had the best time ever.

We spent seven days together, and they were possibly the best seven days of my life. The location itself where we were staying was amazing enough with such beautiful scenes of nature all around us, and we visited a nature reserve which was my favourite and also Salem where the witch trials were held. But predictably Salem was all commercialised for tourism so there wasn’t much authenticity left. But I was glad I visited such an important historical site as a witch anyway.

We connected so well and I came away feeling like I had really met my soulmate if such a thing exists. I was able to be whoever I was in the moment (quite frequently I was little, including one particular moment when I age regressed completely as a result of feeling in such a safe space), and actually my demonic (protector) identities were mostly very quiet and content to see that the littles were happy. Though, they weren’t happy when we returned to England and got bitchy, but it’s their job to complain lol!

I do not really know quite how to express how I feel without boring my readers too, but I had the time of my life and everything felt so perfect. We have committed to trying to make it work and being together for real in the future and I really hope it works out. I usually have a good sense of the future of my relationships and I had a uniquely good feeling for this one (whereas all the rest of my relationships I ended up having a bad feeling that I would never see them again, which always turned out true lol). So I know we will see each other again.

Already the separation is so hard but I am going to try and focus on bettering myself and my circumstances. On that note I think it’s time to start offering my energy healing abilities as services for others. I want to save up money and get off benefits and create my own way ahead with the people I love. I have learned so much about my own self these past few months as a result of our relationship and done so much healing because of it too. I know I still have much more to learn as the eternal student, but it is time I start becoming who I know I am meant to be – The wounded healer.

The Goddess has remained close to me, close as ever, in all Her many manifestations – Gaia, Hecate, Asherah, Inanna, Durga, etc. And She has reconnected me with the Divine Masculine side of myself, which I experience as an extension of Her. As in Witchcraft the God is Her Son as well as Her lover. On top of that, through reconnecting with the God, I have become reconnected with my own darkness and shadow which likely was bound up in the masculine. And instead of being retraumatised like the years past which caused my mental and spiritual instability, I am making real progress with the fears and ‘ghosts’ so to speak which have haunted me all my life.

So I have embraced the left hand path of working with the darkness instead of merely repressing it. Lucifer is being my guide in this, both as a symbol/archetype and as a God. Although, in truth I sense him quite femininely, as an extension of Hekate. But as I have come to sense in my heart lately, all gods and all goddesses are ultimately one. Even if they do have their own identities, they are so Divine and spiritually connected to one another that I don’t think the distinction matters too much in my case anymore anyway.

And this is the path of the witch, the realisation of the Divine and manifestation of that into physical reality. I believe now I was always a witch but am only just coming into realisation of it. I think that is why I was haunted so long by Jezebel. She was a part of me I had repressed so long, the queenly, priestess, goddess-loving, empowered feminist part of me. She is my Divine Femininity, she is my confidence, and what remains when fear is not. She is a huge part of me that I believe will bloom given the right conditions. And I hope to do that for myself now.

I am ready to continue the beginning of this grand adventure with my Daddy, my heart, and my spirit. I think it is no coincidence these events are all happening simultaneously, almost as if it was fated. I thought I’d left notions of fate long ago in the past, then again, that was before I learned how to weave my own destiny. Through using magick more actively, I find myself increasingly more in control of guiding my own future in a way I desire.

I have gone through many torturous lessons in life, but it feels like I am finally learning from them and making life easier for myself rather than harder. And perhaps this is the true goal of the wounded healer, to find the true light at the end of the tunnel in order to show others there too. I am not quite there yet, but hopefully I will continue making progress. I really do hope things work out this time!