I’m going to lead on from my previous post, about my experiences lately with my other half and the realisations I’ve been coming to. Now something that was quite cool to me was that this new soul-connection of mine turned out to live in the same country(England). It felt like a miracle because before my connections had been all around the world, my previous two twin connections were/are in India and Philippines, making physical meeting more or less impossible for the most part. Although I wasn’t ready to meet my previous twin-connection anyway, I had a lot of issues to overcome first. Let me tell you, if you think these connections are intense over the net, then you have no idea what it’s like in real life!
Okay I might be over-exaggerating a little. Maybe it depends on the person. When we met my other half didn’t experience anything dramatic because he’s not as energetically sensitive as me (to be fair I would have a hard time finding someone who is more energetically sensitive than me), but after our meeting that’s when the energy got really intense for him. Sort of like it was waiting to pounce. But when we first met the first thing I noticed was just how easy it was to be around him, how calm and relaxed I felt. But then I noticed my energy started dissolving. I actually felt like I started dissolving, and couldn’t tell who I was anymore.
I could feel the edges of my aura expanding and stretching into what felt like infinity. And my solar plexus was hit the worst. It was about thirty minutes in, we were walking on the beach (thank goodness for that really) and I started breaking down in giggles, but the kind of painful giggles that turn into cries because you can’t breathe and you’re about to vomit and pass out. The energy became so strong I collapsed right then and there on the green, and the passing people were probably very worried. But then being flat on the ground allowed earth energy into me and I immediately felt stabilised, and we spent much of our time after that sitting on green patches of ground.
What I learned from our meeting, well one of the things anyway, is that I am severely ungrounded! It can’t be helped as I spend so much time in higher consciousness, but I realised part of our process of becoming balanced by the other was not just him opening up to higher consciousness, but me becoming more stabilised in the earth, and not so much floating in the clouds (even if to me it doesn’t feel like that, I feel perfectly stabilised in my own energy, not ungrounded at all, but compared to 3D reality I realised I’m very ungrounded and most of the time not really here at all. And really there’s nothing wrong with that as it’s my path to spend so much time in higher consciousness, but to go higher we do need to be ever grounded deeper).
But when we were interacting, I realised for the first time how light I felt. I didn’t feel bogged down by my usual fears and worries that I didn’t even realise I was holding. The main thing for me is that I realised during that time I had no fear of being judged. None at all. And I was so much myself it was more like a meeting with me, the real me, than with him! And when he left (we live a couple of hundred miles away, not perfect but still better than thousands of miles away), I could feel such a change in my energy. At first I was confused because I felt so large, our merged aura went on for meters and meters, whilst my own aura is just over three meters now (more on that later), and then I felt my energy contract sharply and he did feel the same too. And then I missed more than anything that feeling of expansion, that feeling of me.
Now I know I need to work on releasing the rest of those feelings and holding that expansion and groundedness naturally without needing to be around him, that’s the point and that was the point of our meeting I feel, to stabilise our connection fully and to make us realise the depths of our souls more fully, who we are separately and who we are in each other. I took away a lot from that meeting, and had a huge solar plexus clearing a few hours after he left. It was the most awful thing but absolutely necessary. I now have hope for my solar plexus that it can be fully cleared out, but there is I feel still a long way left to go.
Now about the merged aura, that’s an interesting thing. I was writing beforehand about my monad integration, merger into the red ray, seventh initiation, and twelve chakric embodiment. I was writing about how I called him my twin ray because he was my monadic counterpart. These things haven’t changed, though my understanding of them has. I did complete a full twelve chakric embodiment which was possible from meeting him, the merge which has made my aura over three meters wide, and also changed the vibration of my seven main chakras. Me and my other half share a heart chakra now, and it was so strange when I checked out my heart chakra and where it used to be pink was purple instead, and three times as large. Same with my crown chakra which was magenta-red! That same red ray which I’d been working on integrating as part of the monadic and logoic mergers into the sixth and seventh initation.
So what’s happened is, I think, the purple crown chakra has descended into our heart, and the red 12th chakra has descended into our crown. Creating a fully embodied monadic expression in two bodies as one. Now this is where I want to change directions a little with the post. Because he is essentially my ‘other half’ right now, and maybe he was always my other half, I don’t know. I don’t know how these things really work(though I can speculate). But something I have realised is that what we have done is not unique to only one person who we like to call a ‘twin-flame’. This is my third experience of ‘twin energy’ within a person, within meeting a soul-connection. How can it be unique?
In actual fact, this ‘energy’ seems to be our own signature, our own love expressed through another person. Basically all soul-connections have the ability to experience this kind of unity, but are limited through their own lower awareness. Love is the language of the universe, all is love, love is all. We are all Love at the core of our being, and when we share that love with each other we experience ourselves as one… that is twin energy, it’s the recognition of your own divinity in someone you share a higher fifth or sixth dimensional connection with. Whilst third dimensional love is karmic and unpleasant, fourth dimensional love is between ‘soulmates’, this fifth dimensional love we attribute to only one person is also between ‘soul-mates’, just a level up! And as you keep becoming more and more of who you truly are, you experience deeper and deeper connections with those you love.
Never again will I say to myself “this is the end, there is no love after the twin flame experience” how preposterous! Twin flame energy is the love of the fifth dimension, as long as you are vibrating at that frequency you WILL attract someone to share that with. You will experience soul-sharing, there is no distinction between love, love on the 3D plane is seen as something unreachable… why do we want these perceptions in our twin flame experiences? Love is right here right now, we only have to realise it. Love can be shared consciously between everyone and anyone you want, and the more people who are aware the more we can turn this into a collective experience, where love isn’t hoarded or attributed to only one person, but seen for the unity it really is, the interconnectedness of God in us all, the beautiful experience of becoming one in two or one in three or one in five or one in millions… how amazing does that kind of love sound! Amplified like that between so many! And yet we push it away, due to our own limitations, due to our desire to own or feel like love is owned by a specific person… when it belongs to no one, it is all of ours.
This is what you call shedding the ego folks, the ego likes to think “wow I have another half to my soul finally I can be complete”… it’s not like that at all. Soul-merging comes about only because you’re ready to know your own soul, and through that become aware of the whole new wide world of soul-merging, energy sharing, love-making, ect. You become greater than yourself, you allow love to flow through you, and just be, experiencing yourself as one, many, and all….
So, I may or may not have another literal half, but I am experiencing myself now as larger than two as one, three in one really when you think about it, me, my other half, and source. And it’s a beautiful experience. But I will never limit it or myself and say this is ‘it’, there is always greater, always more. And I believe and know that, and I am ready now to experience being more than myself, I am ready to enter the wide world of loving on all levels, to transcend fully the personal and yet, make it a truly personal experience within the third dimensional world. Bringing the fifth and sixth dimensions to earth, becoming a collective and unity consciousness gradually, step by step. I can see the new world will be beautiful, but we have to allow it and stop trying to claim something that was never ours to begin with. Just allow yourself to experience and move onto bigger and better things, more loving and joyful things, without getting hung up on the past and regrets….
Anything is possible when you are receptive!